Samantha
Had a series of dysphoric dreams, one after another after another.
Started with me trying a semi-permanent make-up like thing to try to look more feminine, then going into a washroom to pee - and a friend of mine (Zoly) opening the door on me, leaving it open for the public to see me. So, was hanging out with Zoly and a few others (including a friend named Dana), and she was surprised to see me. And when I asked if I looked good, she was honest and said 'no', it looks terrible.
Then, I got an e-mail, inviting me to go to an event - if you can give a good reason, they had a means for altering how you looked. So I hurried there, only to find out it was for people who had taken part in a kind of 'break and win' lottery system. They were nice enough to give me a ticket to 'be there', and they started showing a film about locally grown fruit and stuff - and I recognized the background music and the voice actor for it. But ... the video was somewhat trans-unfriendly, so I left. I needed to find a place to go to the bathroom - wanted to use the woman's stall, but couldn't ... and couldn't find a bathroom anywhere. Came across Cat and mom, who were there to see me.
Finally found a bathroom, and started scraping the make-up off with some of the face cloths they had here - it was a fitness center, and it felt really hard to find privacy while I did that. Another friend, (Terrel) was there from the US with family, to celebrate a brother's birthday, but at least he was being supportive, but the make-up was almost impossible to scrape and rub off.
I woke up feeling very dissatisfied with myself and the world as a whole, though..
