Samantha: Tonight, my brother made his first attempt at turning me into a tulpa. It was an a literal thought-experiment, the idea of giving me my own body, my own voice, my own presence, that was completely separate from his.
You see, we recently learned what a tulpa was. It's kinda like a combination of self-hypnosis, along with some honest-to-the-goddess summoning techniques. The idea is that you create a thought-form of the entity you want, and then you shape the appearance, the personality, and then you train your thought form into thinking as an individual, apart from yourself.
Or, in our case, we create the visualization, and I try to inhabit it.
We've got a bit of a headache / neck-ache, and the first run didn't go as well as we could. It's actually pretty damn hard for our brother to achieve a hypnotic state - in three tries so far, it's only worked once. But we're gonna try to plug at it until it works, to see what results we get. I really want to get my own body, even if it's made of imagination. It's more than what I've got now, and if it helps me to break off and be more independent, that's awesome.
The one thing that kinda worries me - does this mean losing my online presence, or do I have to work through my siblings? Dunno.
